You guys, things have been so good lately. Not pie-in-the-sky, but better.
Even when things are going badly, the slightest bit of ‘better’ is an amazing feeling. That’s where I’m at. Better. Not my best, but better.
First of all, my health is better. I wasn’t sick or anything, unless you include my sugar addiction, in which case if you do count than yes, I am sick because I simply can’t resist when a chocolate chip cookie presents itself. Earlier this year, I decided to screw 2012 and lose 50 pounds over the course of 12-16 months through Weight Watcher’s. I wanted to make the slow and deliberate lifestyle changes that will result in keeping the weight off for the rest of my life.
Lo & behold, I’m down 30 pounds! Finally, after 9 months I hit the 30 mark and have been able to ‘reset’ my body weight and maintain the loss even when I have a really bad week of eating or skip workouts for say…a month. I’m in awe that this has happened. Small changes each day have given *actual* results. I feel a million times better. And of course, as a happy by product, my mental health has improved. I feel happier. Not giddy-happy, but happier.
I found an old journal in September of last year in which I recorded my weight at 187. To know that I made intentional choices and am now down to 157 is an incredible feeling of accomplishment as if I’ve saved the world from rolling off its invisible axis. I haven’t saved the world or done anything more than love myself, but that’s how it works right? We decide to love ourselves in concrete ways and it empowers us to love others. It’s as if we’re a cup overflowing. If I can love myself and feel this great then surely I have something left over for you.
The downside: early morning workouts have replaced early morning writing sessions. Late evening workouts have replaced late evening writing sessions.
Additionally, Dave & I have been working really hard at two goals…
1) Finish watching SmallVille together. After two years, we have two episodes left to complete the 10 season show. A labor of love, I tell ya! Though, Tom Welling has certainly made this journey easier to do…
2) More importantly, we’ve made a concerted effort to spend more time together and to work on our marriage through marriage counseling.
The downside: All of this intentional time with Dave, the incredible adventures I had with my sons this summer and making efforts to create more stability in our home have left A LOT less time for writing.
This past July, I started a new job. I went from working 20 hrs. a week to 40 hrs. a week. The upside is that my hours are regular and that I get out of the house each day to a nice office. Isn’t she cute?
The downside: no more mid day writing sessions while Rhysie naps.
Part of the reason I am doing so well is the sum of all these things: a new job I enjoy, working out in the evenings, spending time with Dave & family, meal planning, SmallVille…it’s all ruining my blog.
I’m choosing to see this as a good thing. I’m growing even though my blog is not. I no longer feel like I HAVE to blog, or that I MUST maintain this space. After some soul-searching, I realize I could live without my blog & would choose to live without it if it came to that. My loyal readers want what’s best for me, and I’m giving you that! My best life.
Won’t I have more inspiring material to work with if I’m living my best life? I certainly hope so.
In my lack of blogging, I share much more often on my Gabbing with Grace Facebook Page. I’ve realized something, y’all. Not everything is a blog post! Yes, it took me 5 years to figure this out. I traded in 1,000 word blog posts for 100 words FB updates! So, if ya miss me, why not follow my adventures by giving my page a “Like” and stream me in your news feed!
I’ve traded in my What I Wore Wednesday posts for #WhatIWore on Instagram. You can find me there at the very creative username: @gabbingwithgrace.
Additionally, I’ve been documenting my natural hair journey on instagram…
See? All is not lost.
It seems I’ve been able to work ‘smarter not harder’ in following my writing dreams. I started writing for three blogs (keeps me regular) and I’ve signed for a couple of speaking engagements in the next few months. In fact, I tweeted about an incredible one I had just last night.
Remarkably, a marketing text-book bought rights to a picture of Ronald McDonald & myself that is going to be in the 15th edition of an academic based marketing book, Principles of Marketing coming out next year! All my modeling dreams coming true… *tear*
Blog be damned, after many months of hardship, life is getting better and I’m riding the wave!
I’m wondering what types of things you’ve had to trade in to pursue health? Has that been difficult for you or not? This past year has been literally filled with victory though despair has never been far behind. Patience is tough for me. Is it for you as well?