Oh body, oh body, oh body,

Man, have we had a rough 5-6 years or what?  Two babies, breastfeeding, a marathon, enormous weight gain, etc.  I haven’t loved you much at all for this stretch.  I haven’t appreciated you much at all. I have acted as if your a nuisance since the moment I realized I couldn’t control you.

And the bad talk! I talk behind your back like it ain’t nobody’s business! First, there’s the obnoxiously long big toes, I LOVE to hate you for that. Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad if you didn’t have to wear a size 10 shoe. I mean, c’mon, body. For crying out loud, what kind of body are you? You are only 5 6″!

I’ve also hated you intensely for your color, rather lack of it. You are so pale, so light, so yellow. Yes, yes, I know you are biracial, I know you bear the color of both your African-American heritage and your Italian-American heritage but this is ridiculous, can’t you look like one or the other? Couldn’t you brown it up a bit? As your spokesperson, I get really annoyed —and super tired— trying to explain “what” and “who” you are. All. The. Time.

On to the hair. I’ve complained. I’ve pissed and moaned about all the hair coming out of the top of your head… it’s too thick, too long, too hard to manage, too expensive, too this and too that.

Recently, I’ve been down on you about the ginormo-boobs, the big belly, the extra weight. I’m sorry, I know it’s not your fault, it’s mine.

Yes, we have big feet, big hair, big boobs…but the truth is, I haven’t taken care of you well. Not just the bad-mouthing-you-to-anyone-who-will-listen part, but letting you go in ways that were just plain unfair. Who can blame you for picking up a spare tire when I was picking up a Double Cheeseburger & a Venti Carmel Latte every where I went?

But, body, you MUST level with me on this —we’ve been quite the team for these past 8 months, eh? Together, we’ve went from 187 pounds to 157. That’s not too shabby at all, eh? I have appreciated you so much more as I’ve tried to lighten your load…

…the way you work hard for me. The way you keep my heart pumping while everything is in working order though I have no control over it.

You’ve picked up some muscle, babes! You have been faithful while I’ve tried to get my act together in treating you better. You even let me drop a cup size. How sweet are you? Honestly, I couldn’t have wanted anything kinder from you!

Body, let’s get real, mkay?

I’m not EVER going to be wild about my big feet and those redonkulous big toes. I’m never going to throw a party in honor of my hard-to-manage hair. I may one day come to appreciate my skin in ways I haven’t yet, but I will tell you this: in all the ways that matter, I will keep trying to work hard to keep you as healthy as I can.

As long as we both know, we are never going to be perfect.  But we are always going to be beautiful on the inside & occasionally on the outside too.  Let’s shoot for the inside though!

Mostly, I just want you to know, I’m so thankful for your housing me…

Because I know if it wasn’t for you, I wouldn’t have a life to celebrate at all.  You gave me two beautiful and healthy children so as far I’m concerned, I’m forever indebted to you.

If we stick together,  I think we’re going to be a-o-k.

Yours,

g

This post is part of an inspired SheLoves Magazine synchroblog, where women are writing love letters to their bodies.  A lot of insightful goodness going on!

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  • Michelle

    Awwww GRACE! I love this letter to your body! This is so thoughtful and sweet. Very cute pic and I’m trying to get on your level and lose 30 pounds! Good job! I’m proud of you. And your body thanks you. You’ve made her job a lot easier.

    • http://gracebiskie.com Grace

      thank you, Michelle! You can do it! Just do it slowly… aim to lose 1 pound a week…it makes a year long weight loss goal feel very manageable. anyway, you should a write a letter too…feels therapeautic! =)

  • Karmi

    I just love your outfit here and I think there are a lot of girls who would want to have this kind of dress.. Love the outfit so much and the shoes as well..
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    • http://gracebiskie.com Grace

      Thanks Karmi! the dress is from a consignment shop…can’t remember the brand. belt was thrifted & shoes are from payless. Thanks for stopping by & commenting! =)

  • TaNisha Prater

    What an awesome letter to your body. I tell you most nights I look in the mirror and have the same disdain for my body. However, your letter reminded me of all that I have to be thankful for and inspite of the inperfections whether self-inflicted or natural from birth it’s still here functioning for me with minimal issues. So, now the things that I can change like weight gain…I will make a concerted effort to work out and incorporate a lifestyle change, and with the things I cannot change learn to embrace it! Thanks Grace for the revelation!

    • http://gracebiskie.com Grace

      Thanks, Teke! Yeah I think that functioning aspect is what we so often take for granted…usually until it’s too late. Glad I could inspire you! It’s hard to fit that stuff in—we have to keep encouraging one another to do it! So go forth & be healthy …and I will too! =)

  • michael penny

    how can anyone hate big boobs? congrats on being healthier. if we keep fitness a high priority then we will teach our kids to keep fitness a priority. keep up the good work. why would you ever shit-talk big boobs?

    • http://gracebiskie.com Grace

      Ahhhh Mike you crack me up. I’ll tell you this, one can hate big boobs when one is the owner of said big boobs and one looks like a hooker while trying to wear a simple tank top. They just get in the way, can get heavy, makes running a pain, etc. Of course the hubs loves them, but you know what, he don’t have to carry them jugs around all day! THAT’s how! lol. =)

  • http://www.themomwithmoxie.com Bree

    Love, love, love this post! I, like most women, have a serious love-hate relationship with my body. Unfortunately, it’s been much more hate than love, lately. Kudos to you, for losing 30 pounds! I have about 40 I need to get off. And, on a 5’1″ frame… that’s a lot.

    Thanks, for posting this. It’s kinda inspiring.
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    • http://gracebiskie.com Grace

      Thanks, Bree! You should write one too! =) As for the weight loss, Weight Watchers has been really good for me. It’s been really slow and really managable and I’ve definetly had setbacks but they aren’t GIANT set backs like when I’ve done crash diets before (ala Atkins). Even right now I’ve hit a major plateau… so yeah, go & love on yourself through a lighter load. I can’t tell you how much better I feel!!!!

  • Collen

    You are looking really great.
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    • http://gracebiskie.com Grace

      thanks so much!!!!

  • Barbara

    Wow, all those things are sure to have taken its toll on your body. I hope that by being able to overcome the problems, you are now happy with yourself.
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    • http://gracebiskie.com Grace

      Barbara, I am! Thanks! =)