What do I reflect? Is it anger, beauty, sacrifice, love, hate, disappointment?  The complexity of all-of-the-above?

(How terribly inconvenient of us humans to exist with such a myriad of reflections, eh?)

Reconciliation

When I think my last two highly emotive, off-the-cuff, honest posts not only do I get another vulnerability hangover but I wonder if I’m reflecting to you the version of myself I want to be?

Because, reconciliation.

Not just reconciliation between the halves of my racial and ethnic identity: white + black.  But because of: Me + You.  Husband + Wife.  Brother + Brother, all-things-to-all-things, all-people-to-all-people.  That, shalom-DEEP reconciliation that penetrates and permeates relationships so fully it is washed over in grace, love, truth, kindness, longs-uffering, faithfulness and more.  God is wholly other.  That’s how he rolls.  It is because of THAT hope, because of that wholly other love that pushed reconciliation to it’s furthest limits.  He put the weight of the world on the shoulders of an innocent man to tether us -for all eternity- in reconciliation with Him.  No one said it would be easy.  When I look as Scriptures, I expect complexity.

Reconcilation means you will most certainly complexify.

So. I wrote those posts. I had righteous anger. I had indignant anger. I had unholy anger.  If it were cut and dry I’d simply apologize.  But I am an inconvenient human being reflecting, all at once, a myriad of responses and conflicting emotions.

We are complex creatures made by a complex God.  If we are to pursue reconciliation, we live a life of reflection: both of our Jesus and of our relationships to one another.  It WILL be painful, confusing, beautiful, sacrificial, disappointing, foul & disgusting but we must never lose Hope in the one who’s all ready modeled perfect reconciliation on our behalf.

Reconciliation.  That’s my M.O.  That’s my end game. That’s my stee-lo.  Don’t get it twisted.

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We love to just write without worrying if it’s just right or not. For five minutes flat.

Here’s how we do it:

1. Write for 5 minutes flat with no editing, tweaking or self critiquing.

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3. Go and tell the person who linked up before you what their words meant to you. Every writer longs to feel heard.

OK, are you ready? Give me your best five minutes for the prompt: Reflect.”

-Lisa-Jo Baker’s Five Minute Friday

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  • Carol Vinson

    “We are complex creatures made by a complex God. If we are to pursue reconciliation, we live a life of reflection: both of our Jesus and of our relationships to one another. It WILL be painful, confusing, beautiful, sacrificial, disappointing, foul & disgusting but we must never lose Hope in the one who’s all ready modeled perfect reconciliation on our behalf.”

    Just. This. I find that organized religion wants us to deny our complexity, and in doing so, it denies us of healing and being able to live our own truth. Thanks for always being real!

    • http://www.gracebiskie.com/ Grace Biskie

      Carol, how true! It’s impossible to deny our complexities. I see that for me, but it’s also why I need to be ready to extend more grace, more often to give way for others’ as well.

  • Jillie

    Hey Grace…I’ve been reading your latest posts but was truly stumped about sending comments. I decided to just let others do the talking and see what unfolded. You’re right…Human relationships are complex and messy…most of the time. Again, I was struck by your total honesty and vulnerability in your writing. Isn’t it amazing, though, that always after the rant, our thinking clears and we remember the One who advocated for reconciliation in the deepest, most profound way. We are struck anew at His great love with which He loved us. His mercy. His compassion. His forgiveness, which we must then extend to others, especially to the ones who consistently rub us the wrong way. All is grace, Grace.

    • http://www.gracebiskie.com/ Grace Biskie

      Jillie, yes it is amazing and beautiful. All is grace.

  • Natalie Hart

    I’m glad you didn’t apologize for those two posts — please don’t. Too often, Christians write about anger and frustration and difficulty only after God has stepped in and softened their hearts, given them perspective. I feel honored that you trusted your readers enough to go on the whole journey with you: the searing pain, the vulnerability hangover, the grace, the reconciliation. When the only voices we hear are from the “after” period, we get an almost nostalgic version of the pain — there’s nothing nostalgic about anger and pain when you’re going through it. So, thank you.

    • http://www.gracebiskie.com/ Grace Biskie

      Natalie, that’s a good point. I’m so glad to have folks who are willing to go forward with me, even through the messy…before I get to the “after.” What a gift! Thank you!

  • ebanna22

    Love that second to last paragraph especially. Reconciliation is messy, mostly because God decides to use messy, messed up human beings to do the work.

    • http://www.gracebiskie.com/ Grace Biskie

      AIN’T THAT THE TRUTH???